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This Is Not A Recovery Commercial

IM HIGH ON CRACK AND I HAVE A GUN is a self-documented addiction archive by Ryan Homanics. It began as footage, notes, songs, screenshots, captions, and writing from inside a collapse. It became a book, a raw documentary, a soundtrack, a map, a Trap Pass system, and a live community.

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What Is IHOCAIHAG?

A raw documentary/art/archive project about addiction, psychosis, grief, survival, systems, unsafe behavior, and trying to build something permanent out of the wreckage.

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Why It Is Raw

The archive comes from inside the mess, not from a clean room afterward.

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Why It Exists

To make people feel addiction from the inside, then recognize the same logic everywhere.

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Where To Start

Watch the official drops, open the map, then claim a Trap Pass if you want to carry a key.

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What It Is Not

Not a threat, not a drug-use endorsement, not a firearm-use endorsement, not a how-to, and not a challenge.

DISCLAIMER

This is documentary/art/archive material about addiction, psychosis, grief, survival, systems, and unsafe behavior. It is not instruction, not medical advice, not a challenge, and not encouragement to imitate anything shown.

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